demand not.

Two days ago I realized that it's ok to "ask" but not to "question" why (see blog Oct 1). Kung di maayu mag "question", unsa nalang kaya ang mag "demand"?

Why?

1) He is an ever-knowing and ever-present God
He knows us better that we know ourselves. (Psalms 139)
If this is the case, we are like a paper doll challenging the paper doll maker for a quiz bee, arm wrestle or scrabble... The odds of winning? Wala... hahaha

2) His wisdom is beyond our capacity (Job 38)
It's like...
... plugging 110v appliance to a 220v outlet
... 1000mg of Dolfenal to a month old child (meron ba? hehe)
... drinking 100 gallons of water a day
... putting a full grown human brain to a 5 inch paper doll
the results are devastating!

3) He is a King
Luke 10:15 is but just one of the manifestation of God's authority over towns and the power over their welfare or their woe. With such authority, who are we to demand?
You just can't demand Pres. Bush for answers of all his actions and decisions, can you? Try mo ipilit, tingnan natin saan ka pupulutin.

God is God and WE ARE NOT hence we are in no position to "question" more so"demand a reason for God's divine actions".

So here I am, still hurting, "asking" with humility, that I am nothing against Him; patience, waiting for the Lord to reveal His plans; and obedience, submitting my self to it.


***just before posting this, i got this sms from my mama:
   "nak, wala kadayun and operation Jacky (my aunt) karon kay taas iya WBC basi naa daw infection, ugma na pud unta, naa daw sya cardiac pnuemonia, monday na pud and sch"
   "ang discription sa cancer ni Jacky kay invasive dectal carcinoma"

***though nag nosebleed ko sa mga terms na only my lola could understand, i don't need not to be a doctor just to understand she's not in good condition...

Lord, there are things I still don't and can't understand... your wisdom I cannot fathom... what ever your plan is, even if it hurts, with respect, I will accept it... but then Lord, di mo naman din siguro mamasamain if we'll do all things necessary just for her to recover and if i'll ask you to please heal her... yet, if everything else fails, just allow me to be strong for our family...